bright side

Chaos. The one word I tend to use to describe my life at this point in time-is chaos. I find myself exhausted everyday. Drained. Stressed.
I'm not out to compete with anyone....I'm just trying to survive.
I find myself often looking at the negatives of everything....but shouldn't the positives outweigh them?
So I'm going to list out a few positives -and just little things in my life that mean a lot-so I can remind myself to stop whining so much!

1. A supportive family-and a mother I can talk to about almost anything
2. Job Promotion-yeah it's only a $.50 raise- and yes, I could end up transferred...But it could be a good thing to get out and meet new people and experience working at a different building. Plus, I'm learning something new
3. I'm not doing horrible in school-the stress and chaos will eventually pay off-especially knowing that I only have a semester and a half left.
4. Newly restored faith. I was off track-I'm not completely back on track-but I think I'm getting there!
5. My ipod that holds lots and lots of music.
6. My electric blanket
7. An amazing best friend-The girl who has been by my side through everything-boring classes, the OCD professor who wont stop taking off/putting on her glasses-and my photo partner :)-who seems happier then she's been in a while...and I couldn't be happier for her-she deserves the best and I want to see things with her and Matt work out.
8. A restored relationship with my sister. She has shut out everyone for the past 3 years...I finally feel like we're starting to get along again.
9. Despite how hideous it is, a working car that my parents so lovingly have supplied for me-so I have a way to get to Royal Oak for school and everywhere else I need to go.
10. Hope
11. Prayer
12. Laughter
13. An adorable cocker spaniel that comes running to my side as soon as he hears my key in the door
14. The fact that I know I will never, ever, ever give up-on my career, on finding love, and eventually building a family-even if it takes me until I'm 50.
15. Finally a working computer, and Adobe CS4- making school easier to survive, and giving me time to work on things at home rather than in the lab.
16. Someone who always wants to talk to me, and who I'm learning-isn't is as annoying in person as they are via text
17. The long drive to and from Royal Oak. Yeah, I hate driving-but it's the perfect time to crank up the radio and blow off some steam.
18. Aloe socks. because my toes are cold.
19. Knowing that eventually winter will become spring. Can't wait.
20. Life.

promotion

Well, it's official.
I'm the new supervisor for Amc Rochester Hills 10 :).

I'll be starting training sometime next week, and learning all the drills and all that jazz....and I'll still be working all my regular projection shifts. And I get the fun manager uniform. So I'm excited....I think...
The downside-They may or may not transfer me sometime in the future :-\

School is killing me. seriously-going insane.
and I've said this a few times now-but this digital photo assignment is royally pissing me off. We have to retouch a portrait-and make one "reality" and one "fantasy." AKA-make them look like barbie dolls and super models. I'm having the hardest time-I don't really have any studio shots of people I don't know-I just feel....morbid making my friends/family looking like barbies and having to turn in a before and after.
When you have the after, all of a sudden the before makes them look like godzilla. I HATE, hate, hate, hate, hate it.

wonderful world of photoshop

my life is hectic right now. and lonely....very lonely. Not in the "I don't have any friends way"...I'm always surrounded by friends and family..But there's always that thought in the back of my mind...that fear....I want to find that "special someone"....but as time goes on-and the more I hear...the more I'm willing to wait.
A close friend of mine was sexually molested, and I can't say who/where...I wanted to chop everything he had off with a pair of garden shears when I heard....really guys, is it THAT hard to keep it in your pants?

I feel like I'm married to work and school-I barely have time for anything else. I got lucky enough this past saturday to go out with a big group of people to Tonic for Jenny's birthday...I hated myself afterward for staying out so late because i only ended up getting 3/4 hours of sleep before work....but it was worth it.

Once again, I'm feeling severely disappointed in myself this semester. I know I'm capable of sooo much more in my work...and I always promise myself that I'll try harder....but it's almost impossible to put 100% into everything since I've been so insanely busy.

and below is my "joiner" picture for advanced digital. it kind of sucks and i threw it together in an hour...soooo don't really care.
This whole cross-processing thing in advanced color is turning out to be way more complicated then I ever thought it was...I spend 2 hours on ONE picture trying to color correct it...-10magenta..nope...10 more...another 10....5cyan. UGH. it took forever and I ended up hating the picture anyway.

My American Art History class is almost unbearable. I love the subject and all-but sometimes I wonder how the instructor actually got her job....I spend more time distracted by the ridiculous things she says/does then learning...the majority of it I learned in Art Appreciation/photo history anyway.
Top Quotes/misspellings:
Penguins make nests on top of really tall pillars
Tornadoes form over water
Heroric
really.....REALLY?1?!?! I wonder if I'm the only one noticing these things!!!


The highlight of my weekend was discovering "Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog" it's awesome..I'd heard about it forever ago but never watched any of it-but go ahead, watch it...I dare you! this is act 1-there's a total of 3! :)







I must finish my blog now, for I have a migraine, LOST is on in a minute, andddd i'm working a double tomorrow. I HATE WEDNESDAYS!